I Wish I Could Share It Better

Words just dont convey the actual feeling, understanding, and complete thrill of knowing God through Jesus Christ.

How I wish I could better express what I've experienced and what I know. I speak of hearing God, seeing Him act, seeing angels, demons, and learning how definitalively God is completely in control, and the effect that has on my very being.

I wish I could share it better.

I try. I really do. I've done so since He first appeared to me. Clearly I'm unable to express it well enough for others to experience the same.

Of course, God doesn't need me to, and being in control, well, the result of my sharing is solely up to Him.

I wish I could share it better.

Oh, I've asked. Not because I want importance, respect, or even friends. I get enough of all of that from Him directly. But, like a view of a spectacular mountain range, tremendous food, or access to unlimited wealth, I want others to experience it. It's life changing.

I wish I could share it better.

Even so, I think what I really dream of is others to discuss with, and watch them experience the same thrill. I can only imagine what is was like when two or more of His disciples got together years after He floated off into the sky.

"Do you remember when He did _______!?"

"YES!!! That was awesome!!!"

Instead, not many seemed to be thrilled at all.

I wish I could share it better.

I'm not going do church anymore. Yes, I quit trying to connect with those who want nothing to do with me. After years, and years, I've had enough. I quit going on Sunday months ago now.

Almost a year ago, on a local Ormond By The Sea Facebook group, a woman posted a concern that she found no friendship in any of the churches she was going to. She was fairly new, but hoping to grow closer to God with others who had a similar interest.

I wish I could share it better.

Her response was overwhelming. "You should try my church, they are awesome, and welcoming to everyone!"

I had been to every church that was mentioned...really. I met with the crappy, dissmisive treatment that this woman had.

I private messaged her, and said where and when do you want to meet?

I wish I could share it better.

We stared to meet at a local park under a pavilion, just her and myself, on Wensday morning. After months, I invited another woman, the wife of a former co-worker to the meeting. She had expressed a similar complaint about the local churches. To accommodate her work schedule we moved the meeting to Sunday morning. I think that was 3 months ago.

I wish I could share it better.

We have no worship music, no preaching, no ministries, just simple discussion and fellowship...the very thing every church I've been to for years has been lacking.

I wish I could share it better.

The woman, Kathy, created a Facebook page called Friends Through Faith. Me, I personally call it something else, "Just Being the Church". For, that is what is really happening.  I know God is pleased, for as I've said, He talks to me.

I wish I could share it better.

We share the things that God has done, things He is doing, and things we hope He will do. It's awesome! Things I couldn't do in any of the churches, without getting "meh" or fully dismissed.

I wish I could share better.

So, I say to my two compatriots, "Thank you Ladies! It is an honor and thrill to do real fellowship!" I really enjoy getting to share Jesus Christ with you both. Still...

I wish I could share it better.